I love that song that said, “I don’t want to save the whole world and lose my soul.” I used to think that I didn’t want to reach 1 million kids from the bus ministry, street ministry and lose my children. My children were very much a part of everything I did.
When I stepped away from Jesus, it affected them, hurt them in many ways and destroyed them.
Even though I have come back to the Lord, I have left that life that was so broken, dirty and hopeless, for the most part restoration is happening with my children, however there are scars that will never go away, there’s hurt that I can’t undo.
There are regrets that I cannot fix. Important moments I’ll never get back, those are consequences for my choices.
Because I didn’t have fresh bread, I was baking my biscuits with a stale word. I wasn’t seeking God daily the enemy we came in like a flood. I thought I was alright, but I wasn’t.
Now I can see there were things hurting inside of me, I was too busy being a good church person, a good children’s pastor, a good mom, a good wife that I forgot to be in a real relationship with Jesus.
A daily relationship with Jesus gives us the of fresh bread we need. If I could undo my mistakes, I would. If I could remove that hurt for my children, oh I would, but I can’t.
All I can do is go forward and allow God to work to remove the shame and I regret. You have to allow the healing to come. Many times, we carry shame around, when we should leave it at the feet of Jesus. He wants to carry all our pains away.
He died on the cross, so we never had to carry those burdens.
He loves us, if you were the only one, he would’ve left the 99 to find you.
That is just how important you are to him and that’s how important it is to read His word, to seek his face.
You will not survive spiritually if Sunday morning is all you ever put in your soul.
You must do this walk daily. We must daily live for him, turning away from the old life.
Sometimes we leave friends behind people we love so dearly, but our relationships are toxic. We don’t bring each other to Jesus, we take each other far away.
There are times we walk this walk alone, without another soul. As humans, that is ultimately super lonely and hard. Just know He is with us.
He’s holding our hands. The Word says He gave us a comforter that’s the Holy Spirit.
I’m going to share about the Holy Spirit and why we have Him.
My hope is that at the end of this your desire is to want to be filled with the Holy Spirit.
That you will allow the Holy Spirit to work in your life
